26 February 2009
re : i am not going to be lame anymore
or at least that is my new mantra. you see all of my life i have had a serious case of the "one day"s. as in one day i will finally be fluent in french. one day i will be able to sew. one day i will teach myself flash. one day i will be able to afford all of the pretty hair pieces i could want. one day i will have a regular gig in the volunteer world. one day i will process the 45 rolls of 120 film hiding in my underwear drawer.
well all of the above are not getting done, and you know why? because i fall back on that nasty little statement - one day. well f* that. starting about a week or so ago i am no longer thinking one day. in fact i am just thinking today, or tomorrow, or maybe even this weekend. but not one day. for now i am taking an hour or so out of my day and picking up french, and then i have promised myself one pretty handmade hair thing a week (this has so far proven v. interesting).
teaching myself flash is going to be my next big project after i get the three weddings i am working on off to print. other than that i will see how it goes. i tend to get overly excited for projects like this which inevitably ends with me being burned out, lying on the couch and rubbing my temples. but not this time, because i realize there is no sense in rushing through this kind of stuff. i am going to simmer and enjoy .. and damn it i am going to be making interactive websites in french one day ... well maybe not, but you know what i mean.
oh and i am also cutting down on the purchasable things posts ... purses and dresses and shoes are nice, but i am thinking that i need to tone that part of me down a bit ... for the sake of sanity.